Sometimes it comes down to the small, stupid things in life.

Okay, maybe not 100% because of the game, but it was certainly the straw that broke the camel's back. My Ex is a fairly abusive person. On her good days, she's fine. But if she gets hungry, sleepy, tired, hot, or otherwise uncomfortable even in the slightest way she becomes a being of pure, unfiltered rage.

While angry, she will rant; not for a period of time that a reasonable person might rant. Not twenty minutes, not an hour, she will rant every waking moment for DAYS. She will literally wake up from sleeping start yelling about the thing she's angry about then fall back asleep again.

If I don't engage her in her ranting, she will become more aggressive; pulling out name calling, threats, and has multiple times hit me just to provoke a reaction.

I went to visit my parents a few weeks ago because I couldn't handle the rage and I needed a break. The plan, up til a couple days ago was that I would finish working on the latest game update here, and work with her on her anger issues from a distance.

To be fair to her; she has a mental illness that is a root cause of her anger. While she insists that she is ultimately not responsible for anything she does while angry because "you can't blame someone for having an illness", I think you also have to consider the fact that her not being responsible doesn't make the abuse less painful.

Additionally, not being "allowed" to hold her responsible for her actions, in a way makes it even worse. She can call me every nasty name under the sun and slap me silly, but once she's calm again she expects me to just hit the reset button and pretend none of it ever happened.

While over at my parents, Pokemon Go released. Being amazingly overweight, I figured I would start to get more exercise by playing exclusively by walking. Several days into my new routine, I get home from a walk to find that she had sent me some messages on Facebook.

I let her know that I just got back from a walk; which is why I was slow to reply, and suddenly she goes berserk. Apparently, going on a walk makes me the most horrible person to ever live because *she* likes going for walks, and we hadn't gone for a walk together in a while because it had been raining frequently and our area's drainage is terrible so we get giant puddles and mosquitoes.

Since I wasn't there in person to attack, and I guess sending insults over text isn't as satisfying, she went onto youtube and started leaving comments on my videos to "warn" everyone about how terrible a person I am.

Just because I went for a walk.

I told her I'm not coming back. I put my phone on mute, and went to bed. The next morning she has the nerve to tell me that she deleted the comments and that she "needs" me, and that I "need" to come home to her.

No apology. She just "needs" me. Because she always needs me when I'm upset with her. How much easier her life is with me supporting her doesn't even cross her mind once when she's the one angry with me.

Since then, she's been texting me frequently, alternating between telling me how much I need to come back, to screaming about how unfair it is for me to leave her over "something she can't control."

I don't think I can trust her though. After trying to attack my reputation over something as innocuous as taking a walk. I just can't help but imagine what greater heights she might go to for satisfaction next time she decides to take her rage out on me.

Uhm... so... cat tax...?

Front page edit: A couple people have asked what my youtube channel is, and I'm not sure how many more might want to also know. It's not really that great, but if you are curious, it is here: https://www.youtube.com/user/novacorponline