I need some help...

If you have some advice i would very much appreciate it

So here goes. We just started in high school/college (It's in Denmark so I don't know the word for it in English) and I said goodbye to all my old classmates since I chose a school where I knew nobody beforehand. I was excited and eager to meet the new people and on the first day I saw her. As we all do I checked out all the guys and girls to see who were interesting at first glance. We were set up to do a simple task in groups to kind of get to know each other and I was in the same group as her. Let's call her Lola for reference. It all went good in the first week or 2 and I was getting to know people better and the beginning of what I thought would be a really good friendship/relationship began. We were hitting it off good in the first month and she would occasionally text me in the weekends to talk and get away from her parents because they were annoying she said. I didn't really mind going to talk to her for a few hours about stuff with her since I was getting to like her even more from each day that passed. Fast forwards to the first school party. I didn't make it to the pregame since we had family over for dinner that day. So I met the other at the place where the party was held and they were pretty freaking drunk to say the least. One guy from my class had found a baby doll and carried it around saying it was my baby. So at the party I was embarrassingly sober as we say in Denmark and that was a big setback since I’m not much of a dancer (I am 195 centimeters tall so it looks weird if I even try) Anyways I was getting something to drink at the bar and chatting with some other students and such, and my classmates made fun of her because they saw how much time we spent together and how we talked together. I didn't do anything at the time since I didn't really feel like we really knew each other and it would be some awkward years to come if I failed to judge. The next school party I couldn't make it since my new cousin was going to get baptized the morning after. I can say now that I should've been there since the weekend after she came to me and asked if we could talk Face to Face. The moment I saw that text I knew what was up and boy was my heart pounding. So we talked about random stuff as we usually did when we were together. I sat down and she sat down beside me and then she dropped the bomb. She had kissed another guy from our class at the party. I was confused at first but then she added. "I just wanted to know if we are more than just friends" I froze. What the hell do I say? So I panicked and said that I saw us as friends because that was the easiest way out. "Good because I just wanted to know if I needed to feel bad about me and him kissing and all"
I dun fucked up.

The next party was at a classmate’s house, and as the prophecy foretold I came an hour later than the others. When I arrived I couldn’t find Lola or him. Then I hear a door slam shut and someone saying that they were in the living room eating each other’s tongues. FUCK! The day after I asked her if we could talk and I told her that I had been a coward when she asked we if I saw her as more than a friend and I needed to tell her that. She didn't even flinch. "Well I already knew when you said you wanted to see me..." so we sat on the couch 90 minutes talking about what the hell we were going to do and also just talking in general about school and stuff. It was like she didn't even recognize what I told her. She had already made up her mind at the second party. I was just a friend, nothing more. I'm fucked. I have to see them both 5 days a week for the next 3 years.
I feel like her asking if I had feelings for her just fucked me even more now that I know that it wasn’t really true on her end.
I apologize for the long text I just needed to tell someone.
What do?