Ever feel...stale?

Soo im 22 and for quite sime time now I don't feel much of anything. I go through the motions, act like people expect me to, try to blend in. I dont get a sense of fulfilment anymore and Im trying to see how everyone else does it. Ive tried to do everything I see other people do just to have a single moment of happiness/being content. It just feels like i have this giant hole inside me and im missing something everyone else seems to have and ive tried everything to fix it including drugs and alcohol. Nothing works and i just feel...faded

Tl;dr op wants to know what its like to feel again