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On Friday just after 4am my best friend commited suicide. He was found right next to the spot where he took me on our first real date.
He was so smart, kind and loving. Always had time for anyone and everyone
We had our ups and downs but I always thought we would be there for each other in the end
He always was ready for a laugh and to make people happy. One of our friends hated the pink shorts he wore with a passion so for our friends birthday he gave them to him with a drum, lighter fluid and a packet of matches.
When I look back over the last couple of weeks there were signs. Signs that I could of picked up on but I was to caught up in my own problems.
He made the front page last week. He was so excited he called me at work just to tell me
This was the first night we kissed. On his 21st birthday. We were in a dingy night club at 4 am. That was the moment I knew.
He was always in the middle of something fun. He was always the centre of a room, always the happiest, loudest guy and had to make sure you were having fun
The first night that we got to know each other. He had bought a bed frame off my friend and had to move it across university campus. I volunteered not know how heavy or far I had to carry it. Two flights of stairs and a treck across half the campus we made it. Afterwards I told him he owed me a beer so we went straight to the bar and we were best friends ever since then. I miss you so much u/ADwarfAmongstMidgets I still can't believe it. You really were the light of my life and now I dont know what to do without you.
His favorite say was "Not all those who wander are lost". Thanks for the best 3 years of my life. I dont know where to go from here. I love you.
whatisthisimgurforants
That was my friend's favorite phrase too. She committed suicide 4 years ago. I am sorry for your lost.
NatesSauceLab
At some point society will realize that those of us who are the center of attention are screaming to not die. (This) happy is a mask.
horus127
Sorry for your loss OP
MoogleJess
My condolences.
adultishgambina
Condolences, OP. Losing someone is difficult. Take care <3
Schmoopydoop
May he rest in peace.
BubsBunny
Dangerneck
That sucks.
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hailtheV
I lost my brother to suicide. I am so sorry for you. Please know you are loved. Sending hugs.
Rensome
I rly need to hire someone who does one of these heartwarming posts bout me when i go. Can't imagine anyone would do this for me otherwise.
BlackberryCobbler
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oZjCnNIpSOQ This movie is called The Last Word... and she does exactly what you said.. beautiful
Axew
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skincancerisfun
Probably the best reason not to check yourself out. Gotta get out there! Make someone care about you, so that when you do go its not just
skincancerisfun
a fart in the wind.
zmanz
All my love & condoleance.. lost a younger brother this year too..
dangerm0use
I don't know why, but you guys look like Aussies to me. Beyond Blue and Lifeline are amazing resources to call on when you're feeling down x
movebitchgetoutOFtheway
Haha we are. We ❤ the gong
nextspencer
My younger brother took his life almost 3 years ago. I know it's natural, but be careful with sentiments like: "I always thought we would...
nextspencer
...be there for each other in the end." Just by how you wrote about him, I can tell he was very important to you and I know and he knows ...
nextspencer
you were there.
RedStarBeograd
Eh.... idk man, he killed himself next to the place where he asked her on his first date. What does that tells you?
Hemelsblauw
Sorry for your loss. Cherish the lovely memories of him you have. He must have been an awesome person.
BLONALD
Burn the coal, pay the toll.
RockTheCatBox
I was just browsing through his posts and saw this. I hope it brings you comfort that he likely found comfort in this.... 1/2
RockTheCatBox
movebitchgetoutOFtheway
Thankyou very much.
Duckeggpie
So sorry :( Dont blame yourself for not noticing, remember how lucky you were to have him even for a short time.
dukenukemforpresident
I hate when people commit kimuicide
BodyEater
i'm very conflicted as to whether i should upvote this comment. damn you
dukenukemforpresident
I'm very kimpelling
Dankdawg69
TheHawkRules
Fun Fact: Some people who are depressed focus mainly on helping others be happy, with jokes, or silliness in general.
arsenicpill
Shit. I remember that post. I remember looking at the username, which isn't something I ever even really do, but it stood out anyway. Fuck.
movebitchgetoutOFtheway
He really was so excited about it. He didnt lurk as much as I did but it really made his day.
funnyfaceking
What an asshole.
IrateCanadien
My condolences. If you don't mind talking about it, what were the signs you noticed? In case others might be going through this as well.
Kittybitters
My friend suffered depression for years, it was all over when she seemed "better", like at peace with herself. The calm before the storm.
ThatBlondeCrayGirl
My signs where staying up days on end, giving away all my things and hiding from everyone. It took me a month to seek help.
Ninetails232
I feel this is a big one. Whenever I'm feeling like I'm getting close to do it I start to organise all my affairs so nobody has to clean up.
rikoschett
Try just googling "signs of depression".
dinocratic
I couldn't help but get teary eyed after reading this. I am truly sorry for your loss.
movebitchgetoutOFtheway
I'm really sorry but thats not something I really feel comfortable talking about yet
FallenShadow1000
And that's totally okay. I'm so sorry for your loss.
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Sarwallya12
Reported
MaladaptedMedic
Reported you for false reporting
Bravacado
Didn't report either of you but downvoted you both.
haco1234
Jesus man be alittle more empathetic
ashmenon
One big one I felt was the withdrawing from others. I didn't want to burden others with my emotional state of mind, so I just went inwards.
objectreborn
That's how I get. I force myself to at least text a friend when I realize I've become afraid to talk to anyone.
ashmenon
Yeah. There was this one difficult time for me when my best friend was going through a downtime of her own and wasn't available.
ashmenon
And my other best friend, as much as I love him, is not the type to answer messages or calls.
ashmenon
So I basically just went and masturbated it off.
msgolightlygow1
I’d like to know signs also just so I know what to look for but of course only when it’s appropriate Idk if it’s too soon to ask this
Madethisusernameforonereason
Not OP, but in my case my friend rapidly increased drinking, seemed withdrawn in formerly boisterous social situations. All hindsight...
zackofspades
May I ask how quick the downfall was?
Madethisusernameforonereason
A few weeks to maybe 2 months. In our social outings he seemed more withdrawn, less engaged, but the idea he'd suicide wasn't in our minds.
zackofspades
Drugs? I don't mean to be insensitive, just spooked. Suicide is a reason I don't think I can ever own a gun tbh.
princessswan
It never is. No one expects it as it is too scary to think that someone you care about might just vanish.
GohstLaker
Sorry for your loss we are here for you
DoroFuyutsuki
I'll get downvoted to oblivion for it but fuck it... he hit FP and realized he had peaked. It's all downhill from there.
AnokaJoe
I'm so sorry op, if you need to talk just shoot me a message
fapjacks
could have*
Sharkytrs
Not all who wander are lost, but the lost are always left wandering.... Condolences, sometimes the happiest people are the ones hurting most
SpaceGiraffeWithaWaffleMaker
Just a reminder that there is ALWAYS help a call away: Suicide Hotline 1-800-273-8255
Vambee
If you're in the US you can use Crisis Text by texting to 741741. A counselor will get right back to you. We are happy to talk & wanna help.
butternutsquashfarts
I've looked that number up a few times. I'm not a great phone talker, so I always figured texting would be easier for me. Never used it tho
InfraredSnapper
Thank you for calling the Suicide Hotline. Your call is very important to us. Thank you for your patience.
SpecialAgentCake
Having called myself, this was not my experience. The ability to talk with someone without judgement or need to talk again was amazing. 1/2
SpecialAgentCake
Repeatedly, the lady I talked to asked if she could tell someone else. She asked if I needed the police. She asked if she could tell my 2/3
SpecialAgentCake
parents. She wanted to make it right. On its own, it didnt solve the problem. But it was a small push. Enough to see through fog and hate 3/
SpecialAgentCake
that someone gave a shit, that someone fucking cared. They arent what so many call them to be. It isnt enough on its own. But the first 4/5
CrazyMrowLady
For everyone who is not in the US: http://www.suicide.org/international-suicide-hotlines.html
DonHarpoon
My country is not listed there =(
JiggleWigglepp
What about those in space?
HermanCortezi
Flat earth under a dome on giant turtle
EvilKam
Asking for help cost me $11,947. I should have just jumped.
sourorphan2112
I'm gonna guess ambulance/ER fees? I'm sorry :( please dont feel that way, you matter.
SumoSGazer
I’m not sure if this is in the US, but for my monthly counseling it’s $100 out of pocket due to insurance not covering it.
ToGServer
Hey if you need somebody to talk to, please feel free to hit me up
MisterOp
How?!
Fogqueen
I'm sorry for your loss. DO NOT Blame Yourself! Take Care.
ElbowdeepinElmo
I read that as "Take Cake" and I don't think that's bad advice either.
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Gatzb
Sarcasm or not, that's a real shotty thing to say dude...
DaviiJones
I dont get it. Was it her bf or her best friend ?
jofea
Don't blame yourself but you are probably at least part of the reason he killed himself. You were dating and then split up just before!
ActionJohnnie
The troll is strong in this one.
throwaway97timea9000
Came here to say this - someone further down said he killed himself at the first date spot. It's that's not a sign then ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
fuckyourselfpity
"I always thought we would be there for each other in the end" until you weren't there for him when he needed someone most. People fighting
fuckyourselfpity
depression don't need fairweather friends or people who are afraid to stick out a challenging time in a relationship.
Affray
Created this account just to say that? You're quite the spineless little troll and I genuinely hope that misfortune finds you at every turn.
jofea
Wow that's not very compassionate of you. I genuinely hope no misfortune befalls you! I'm merely making an observation of facts /1
jofea
It's not blame just a grim horrible reality of life. I am just a pretty matter of fact kind of person. /2
Affray
1)I don't think after your comment you can really say anything about compassion and have it carry any weight. Regardless of the potential