Memeguel
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He's straight and I'm gay. Went exactly how I expected but I still can't help to feel bad. He's been a close friend since 6th grade but I started catching feelings for him in the 9th grade and I'm already half way through the 11th. It didn't feel like a normal crush though. Crush feels like too much of a temporary word. It was more like love. I told him because I needed to get this off my chest. I don't know how to feel right now. I only have one other close friend to tell this to right now and he's busy so I guess I'll just dump these emotions onto Imgur.
EDIT: Thank for all the responses. Really makes me feel like I'm not alone. I'm sort of new to Imgur, but Imgurians are really great people.
thecreep1ngbam
I really don't know what you thought to gain by telling him. You'd have eventually got over him when you met someone gay who felt the same
ThatCoolGuyYouMetAtThatOnePlace
This too shall pass, OP. It may not feel like it now, but the hurt will fade. Telling your crush/friend you like them is brave. Bravo, sir!
KidCola
It was never going to end well. It was always going to end awkward.
BehemothTheManCat
Is he still your friend though?
Memeguel
Yeah it didn't end terribly. I just asked him if he would consider being in a relationship with a guy and he said that that's not him
GunslingerGonzo
I gotta ask, if you knew he wasn't gay why would you risk your friendship by telling him?
Memeguel
I wasn't 100% sure if he was straight. I asked him if he was straight and then told him how i feel because rather taken the chance 1/2
Memeguel
because I wouldn't like to regret not to telling him. Regret hurts more than rejection in the long run.
GunslingerGonzo
Completely understand. I've been in this position before. Things may suck for a bit but they'll get better.
Memeguel
Thanks for the optimism
mwxicantits
Love happens, but don't be hard with yourself @OP you take it out, it's better than being quiet
lifeisapicnic
That's so hard. Finding someone awesome is hard enough. It'll get better
RabbitRevenge
well thanks for not writing 8 paragraphs about how you CAN'T muster up the balls to tell the person how you feel. up-vote!
leeferrrrr123
We all go there at some point don't let it get you down remember you would never know if you didn't say
Memeguel
I would rather live with rejections than die with regret wishing I had told him.
Probabilitortheannoying
Chris?
myusernameisntfunny
No its patrick
mrbadxampl
maybe I just lack the perspective on this from not being gay myself, but wouldn't you look for another gay man to fall for?
Horro
You dont always choose who you love.
Memeguel
The reason I had a crush on him was because we were close friends and we shared so much in common except for sexuality.
Memeguel
It's my fault for falling in love with him.
morningxafter
No worries bro, I had the same thing happen in high school. One of my best friends came out to me and told me he'd been in love with me...
morningxafter
For a long time. We're still friends to this day. Went to his wedding in fact. He eventually realized they were just high school feelings...
morningxafter
& found himself an awesome dude to share his life with. I did do a striptease for him at his coming out party though. Least I could do.
turningfrownsupsidedown
No one can chose who they fall for or how they fall or when they fall or why.. This is coming from a Christian, keeping you in my prayers.
morningxafter
Well said.
Memeguel
I really appreciate that. Thank you for understanding.
modernmadmax
Embrace the fact you actually do love him though. You can love people on different levels, just don't feed the idea of being sexual with him
myusernameisntfunny
What's being Christian got to do with this? This is coming from a vegan.
turningfrownsupsidedown
Go home vegan, go home and turn from your vegan ways.
Cptmike
1 prayer = 1 homo
Danieldirkson
Made me kek. +1
Tezcatlipoca666
U d serve more up votes
SLAANESHonNSFWposts
You got time if it's only 9th grade OP. Don't take the rejection personally and you'll catch those feelings again.
Memeguel
Thanks for the advice. I would never hate him for it or take it personally because he can't help the fact that he's straight.
Memeguel
Forgot to mention I just started 11th grade. I would've never though a crush would last more than 2 years.
SLAANESHonNSFWposts
It'll normally last until you accept it's not going to work. Then it'll fade and you'll find someone new. It's more difficult in school 1/
SLAANESHonNSFWposts
Because you still see them every day but after school you'll realize there's always someone else. The feeling normally doesn't completely 2/
SLAANESHonNSFWposts
Fade but it wanes over time. There are still women I love who've I've accepted I can't be with for various reasons but love isn't exclusive
Memeguel
Thanks so much for your input. Helps me feel better knowing that people understand.
RamblinRedRooster
I know this isn't what you want to hear right now, but it might be a piece of what you need; don't fret a high school flame burning out...1
RamblinRedRooster
There's a chance yall can remain friends, there's a chance yall would have never remained friends after high school, there's a chance ...2
RamblinRedRooster
Yall could have would up together. All of these possibilities were maybes. The constant for sure is that you have way more life to live...3
RamblinRedRooster
And you will learn so much more about yourself as you grow and mature. This hurts now, but it will help you find happiness in the future...4
RamblinRedRooster
So cry the tears you need, or be as sad as you need for now, then buck up and prepare for the next chapter in life. It gets better. (fin)
Memeguel
I really needed this. Thank you so much for your words of wisdom. Helps a young guy out when they don't know how to feel.