Shout to the void

not looking for sympathy or anything like that. I'm just shouting to the void. I've been doing social work since 2015, and since then I've seen almost every cruelty you can imagine that been perpetrated. I've been doing this job while on the spectrum which as you can imagine has been an uphill fight. I've reached a point where my depression, anxiety, and suicidal ideation have made me doing this job almost impossible. whenever I reach out to friends or family they carelessly and thoughtlessly say you should just find another job. unfortunately I'm not sure where I can go and still make a decent living and retain benefits. I have to messed up feet so being on a factory floor or something of that nature it's just not in the picture right now. I'm stuck.