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Quick one (sorry it’s gloomy). I am so spent. Living with complex PTSD, depression and anxiety is just wearing me down at the moment. I’m mentally wrecked from all the work I need to do on myself and for myself just to be able to function. I know how important it is, and I do all the stuff I need to do (meds, therapy, good diet and exercise, etc etc). I am just so drained and wish I could stop thinking so much. I wish I could just live, and “get on with it” without always being so aware of what I have to do.
Also… perimenopause… I think it’s got a hand on the steering wheel too.
This really is just a big whinge. Sorry, folks. Thanks for reading if you did, hope you are doing OK
trippingthelightfantastic
There was a writer that wrote "Suffering is wishing things were other than what they are." I think about that a lot.
RoyDMercer
You aren't alone feeling that way.
fartytowels
Thank you, very true.
Royoffinland
It's ok, whinging is alright, we all do it at time or another. I'm in serious shit too and too tired to care if someone I know recognize me.
fartytowels
Thank you. I’m sorry you’re doing it tough as well.
Royoffinland
Thank you, and it's ok, I've never been on very smooth sail. I'm quite used to be on rough patches, but it's getting the best of me. I try to cheer people when I can, and whine when I can't. MRW I remember what I used to think that my life would be in the future. (and honestly, the whole humanity)
Thesaya
Sometimes I just want to give up and make something that'd get me committed, just give up for a while, without having to keep trying. But I also know it wouldn't really feel like a break. It's just so exhausting.
fartytowels
It really is exhausting, isn’t it. We just need some respite at times like this.
Thesaya
Indeed
Layinginbed
Being committed is not the break you think it is
Thesaya
I know it's not.
Armyguy8382
fartytowels
Thank you - this is wonderful.
mortrans
That is beautiful! Imma write that in calligraphy pen and put it on my wall!
Armyguy8382
Share a pic when it's done.
mortrans
May take a while.. but I will tag you or reply here..