I know I am not alone but it doesn't help the feeling as if I am.

Just me being whiny, you dont have to read further. I work a fun but tiring job just to come home to a big 4 bed house that's empty. I have little money even though I am blessed with little expenses and a steady job. so I can't do a lot during the day, I am new to my area. I just feel alone, but there are people that love me. So here I am 19 and in the adult world. Alone and trying out new IPAs on my back porch sitting in a fold out chair by myself.

Tldr- Man whines, and feels shity because he knows he has it better than most but still whines.