Fuck Christmas

I fucking hate Christmas. Gives me serious anxiety having to buy gifts, prepare meals and spend time with my judgmental family who asks a question every 5 seconds about what I’m doing - “I’m making coffee to drink outside on the porch”, “I’m putting my shoes on because they’re comfortable, not because I’m going somewhere” I swear to god if they waited 7 seconds they would see wtf I’m doing and not have to ask me about every little thing I do. I wish I could happiness in this holiday like everyone else but I just can’t seem to get it. I’ve tried every year and every time my heart is on speed mode for straight days while I’m with them. I fucking hate Christmas.