20734 pts · May 28, 2018
I’m in therapy now, thankfully. I have to wait for brain drugs after I (hopefully) start infusions for the chronic stuff, just to see how it takes and what other medicines I can balance with it. I’ve waited months for all of this, but it feels like its taking so long to see any real hope
I know no amount of words is going to ease the pain of a betrayal, but I hope you know that you’re not alone, and we’re sorry this happened to you. Do what you need to do to treat yourself, take care of you.
statistically speaking it wont work out, but then again it’s not my circus. I ping-pong between worrying over them getting hurt and letting them do their thing as they’re adults, it just sucks I can’t get over it faster.
Its funny and awful and it hurts to think that even if I give them the cold shoulder it wouldnt change anything right now. I think everyone who commented is helping me figure out I was mourning something that was already gone
I just wanted them to be happy. I feel awful thinking I’ll be there for them if things end, but it makes me wonder what kind of person I am if I’m already thinking of their break-up.
Poly isn’t my thing, but I still support my friends and who they love. I thought I had a good handle on what goes into a poly relationship from what 2/3 have told me, but I assumed most started out all at the same starting point. While I figured while one would fall, the 2/3 that were engaged would keep to themselves because the last time they were poly it ended badly.
This is really good advice, I moved to a town that’s still up and coming so there’s not much to do, but I have heard of bird watching club. I’m sure there’s more, and I could try a new hobby. I wish friendships were easier to make
All the ‘what ifs’ are going through my head. I feel like I contributed to my own loneliness when I thought it would bring us closer together :(
it feels so weird after so many years the friendship feels like it’s gone.
For so long I thought I should have been lucky, one friend is always so busy. Plans kept falling through, then when they had time they kept repeating; “I could have been with xyz”. I know I’m an option, I just never wanted to feel like one
I was depressed for a bit; it was hard to invite them but I did try on a few occasions. 1/3 was in almost regular contact, but would drop ‘we were hanging out in call’ or ‘in our server we did xyz’ and the worst fomo came over. I didn’t mention how I was feeling because I wanted to give them time, vague posts here and there, but nothing. I feel like I could’ve done more; maybe if I worked harder or been better, or made myself more accepting(?). I don’t know what I could have done more
I feel awful, like my stomach really hurts, I think it’s not going to work out? They’ve both been poly before and it was traumatic when the relationships ended. Two out of the three are already engaged, they’ve talked seriously for two/three months. I feel like a monster thinking that, theyre so happy and I’m thinking these awful thoughts. I still offered to be there for them, but I’m the person who introduced them, I feel like it’s my fault if they experience heartbreak.
I don’t know what I need to do to be better. I’m genuinely happy for them, but I’m terrified of them snapping at me again or lying about so much. They said they could have been with others but they were friends with me. I should be greatful but it feels like I’m a burden
When I read your post it just felt like it was a version of me, I felt less alone. I thought for a moment that they didn’t tolerate me, that they wanted me as their friend. They said so! We’ve spent so much time together then it just went away. It makes me terrified that the next relationship I try to form is just going to be another facade. Its feels so awful when they get your hopes up. I thought I had friends who made me feel safe but left me out of so much.
It feels like I’m mourning. I know moving forward and being happy for them is the likely step forward, but it’s just so hard to accept.
i’ll do my best to deliver!
thank you!
Yay!! Fingers crossed for improved health!!
: 0 9 hours for a blood test?! That sucks! I think when people are marked as anemic or need blood results immediately compared to the average populace but, yknow, YOU NEED THE TEST DONE TO SHOW YOURE ANEMIC! I’m so sorry it took so long. I hope your hospital treats you better!Also, thank you for working in a hospital. Regardless of what you do, I appreciate the effort you put into taking care of folks and the hospital itself.
Omg, you’re a trooper! I’m on meds to manage my period, and previously they used to be so heavy…maybe that should’ve tipped me off lol. I hope things are more manageable now! May your cramps be non-existent and your flows be light!
Ice was my go-to too! I’m fortunate where my blood pressure has remained in good standing according to the docs! I hope youre feeling better, cant imagine the fatigue you must be going through
Pica, its a term to describe wanting to chewing/craving stuff thats usually not food. I think ice is the most common but I think clay and soil are other things folks chew on too. Pica is associated with iron deficiency, and by some extension, anemia.
He’s surveilling me well, especially during scheduled snacks and meals. I’m positive he was making sure I was taking my meds and keeping me safe lol!
I was feeling sluggish, couldn’t eat, had a hard time keeping food down, heart-palpitations from just climbing out of bed and chest pains. I pushed through it but my final straw was just the fatigue; I felt like I’d have to sit down every 5 minutes! I hope anyone who reads these posts know the signs! Even if you think you can tough it out, like I tried, its not safe! Please be careful!
A 4.3?! I think the staff were sparring my feelings at the ER, they moved with some haste, sure, I even made the joke, “Haha, well they got the tests back and theyre not running, so thats good, right?”, dude, I didn’t know it was life-threatening until I got home 😭I’m so glad your mom is okay! That’s terrifying. Hopefully whatever got her that low was/is being treated!
Congradulations!! I’m so glad they got everything!! I’ll take any advice for pelvic exams. I’ve gotten one pap smear, and that was before I dated. That is the only exam I know; aside from the presses on my abdomen. Had a cyst pop when a doc pressed on it.Also, please take your time, I’m resting up myself, I’ve got all the time in the world haha!
I wanted to cry, don’t get me wrong. Every worst-case scenario went through my mind, but I saw my dad; and heard it in his voice. I cracked as many jokes as I could, talked about how I’ll be referred to as a vampire after this visit, etc. I hope you’re doing well DaBaDoop, I hope you’re recovering okay. If you got any advice to help prep I’d love it. I’m worried this may be a huge cyst if they can’t find anything. PCOS is a B!
worry not, I went from paper to plant in complexion, I am feeling waaaayy better.
Thank you for the advice! I’m excited to get everything checked out to rule out what may be causing internal bleeding. I was so scared it was going to be hour long procedures, now I know at most it takes 30 minutes for each? and i’ll be asleep? Perfect; I’ve napped longer because of whatever is affecting me. As for BF; his fingernails look good, and he probably does have sleep apnea. I’ll talk to him about getting checked out. I’m glad he’s not in any pain.
If you’re ever in the east coast, DMV area, it was the Virginia Medical Center.
I’m in therapy now, thankfully. I have to wait for brain drugs after I (hopefully) start infusions for the chronic stuff, just to see how it takes and what other medicines I can balance with it.
I’ve waited months for all of this, but it feels like its taking so long to see any real hope
I know no amount of words is going to ease the pain of a betrayal, but I hope you know that you’re not alone, and we’re sorry this happened to you. Do what you need to do to treat yourself, take care of you.
statistically speaking it wont work out, but then again it’s not my circus. I ping-pong between worrying over them getting hurt and letting them do their thing as they’re adults, it just sucks I can’t get over it faster.
Its funny and awful and it hurts to think that even if I give them the cold shoulder it wouldnt change anything right now. I think everyone who commented is helping me figure out I was mourning something that was already gone
I just wanted them to be happy. I feel awful thinking I’ll be there for them if things end, but it makes me wonder what kind of person I am if I’m already thinking of their break-up.
Poly isn’t my thing, but I still support my friends and who they love. I thought I had a good handle on what goes into a poly relationship from what 2/3 have told me, but I assumed most started out all at the same starting point. While I figured while one would fall, the 2/3 that were engaged would keep to themselves because the last time they were poly it ended badly.
This is really good advice, I moved to a town that’s still up and coming so there’s not much to do, but I have heard of bird watching club. I’m sure there’s more, and I could try a new hobby. I wish friendships were easier to make
All the ‘what ifs’ are going through my head. I feel like I contributed to my own loneliness when I thought it would bring us closer together :(
it feels so weird after so many years the friendship feels like it’s gone.
For so long I thought I should have been lucky, one friend is always so busy. Plans kept falling through, then when they had time they kept repeating; “I could have been with xyz”. I know I’m an option, I just never wanted to feel like one
I was depressed for a bit; it was hard to invite them but I did try on a few occasions. 1/3 was in almost regular contact, but would drop ‘we were hanging out in call’ or ‘in our server we did xyz’ and the worst fomo came over. I didn’t mention how I was feeling because I wanted to give them time, vague posts here and there, but nothing. I feel like I could’ve done more; maybe if I worked harder or been better, or made myself more accepting(?). I don’t know what I could have done more
I feel awful, like my stomach really hurts, I think it’s not going to work out? They’ve both been poly before and it was traumatic when the relationships ended. Two out of the three are already engaged, they’ve talked seriously for two/three months. I feel like a monster thinking that, theyre so happy and I’m thinking these awful thoughts. I still offered to be there for them, but I’m the person who introduced them, I feel like it’s my fault if they experience heartbreak.
I don’t know what I need to do to be better. I’m genuinely happy for them, but I’m terrified of them snapping at me again or lying about so much. They said they could have been with others but they were friends with me. I should be greatful but it feels like I’m a burden
When I read your post it just felt like it was a version of me, I felt less alone. I thought for a moment that they didn’t tolerate me, that they wanted me as their friend. They said so! We’ve spent so much time together then it just went away. It makes me terrified that the next relationship I try to form is just going to be another facade. Its feels so awful when they get your hopes up. I thought I had friends who made me feel safe but left me out of so much.
It feels like I’m mourning. I know moving forward and being happy for them is the likely step forward, but it’s just so hard to accept.
i’ll do my best to deliver!
thank you!
Yay!! Fingers crossed for improved health!!
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9 hours for a blood test?! That sucks! I think when people are marked as anemic or need blood results immediately compared to the average populace but, yknow, YOU NEED THE TEST DONE TO SHOW YOURE ANEMIC! I’m so sorry it took so long. I hope your hospital treats you better!
Also, thank you for working in a hospital. Regardless of what you do, I appreciate the effort you put into taking care of folks and the hospital itself.
Omg, you’re a trooper! I’m on meds to manage my period, and previously they used to be so heavy…maybe that should’ve tipped me off lol. I hope things are more manageable now! May your cramps be non-existent and your flows be light!
Ice was my go-to too! I’m fortunate where my blood pressure has remained in good standing according to the docs! I hope youre feeling better, cant imagine the fatigue you must be going through
Pica, its a term to describe wanting to chewing/craving stuff thats usually not food. I think ice is the most common but I think clay and soil are other things folks chew on too. Pica is associated with iron deficiency, and by some extension, anemia.
He’s surveilling me well, especially during scheduled snacks and meals. I’m positive he was making sure I was taking my meds and keeping me safe lol!
I was feeling sluggish, couldn’t eat, had a hard time keeping food down, heart-palpitations from just climbing out of bed and chest pains. I pushed through it but my final straw was just the fatigue; I felt like I’d have to sit down every 5 minutes!
I hope anyone who reads these posts know the signs! Even if you think you can tough it out, like I tried, its not safe! Please be careful!
A 4.3?! I think the staff were sparring my feelings at the ER, they moved with some haste, sure, I even made the joke, “Haha, well they got the tests back and theyre not running, so thats good, right?”, dude, I didn’t know it was life-threatening until I got home 😭
I’m so glad your mom is okay! That’s terrifying. Hopefully whatever got her that low was/is being treated!
Congradulations!! I’m so glad they got everything!! I’ll take any advice for pelvic exams. I’ve gotten one pap smear, and that was before I dated. That is the only exam I know; aside from the presses on my abdomen. Had a cyst pop when a doc pressed on it.
Also, please take your time, I’m resting up myself, I’ve got all the time in the world haha!
I wanted to cry, don’t get me wrong. Every worst-case scenario went through my mind, but I saw my dad; and heard it in his voice. I cracked as many jokes as I could, talked about how I’ll be referred to as a vampire after this visit, etc.
I hope you’re doing well DaBaDoop, I hope you’re recovering okay. If you got any advice to help prep I’d love it. I’m worried this may be a huge cyst if they can’t find anything. PCOS is a B!
worry not, I went from paper to plant in complexion, I am feeling waaaayy better.
Thank you for the advice! I’m excited to get everything checked out to rule out what may be causing internal bleeding. I was so scared it was going to be hour long procedures, now I know at most it takes 30 minutes for each? and i’ll be asleep? Perfect; I’ve napped longer because of whatever is affecting me.
As for BF; his fingernails look good, and he probably does have sleep apnea. I’ll talk to him about getting checked out. I’m glad he’s not in any pain.
If you’re ever in the east coast, DMV area, it was the Virginia Medical Center.